Windmill...

i believe im a bad person.....i almost wanted to destroy someone's relationship....maybe i should just stay as single....i always bring troubles to ppl...being alone is very sad but at least ppl no need worried about me....i no need disappoint ppl...

yeah....bad ppl will never get happy ending....same goes to me.....

feels like running away...

ok....its a very long time that i didnt update...well i thought i wont be writing something in this blog again...but today i really feel like writing something to release stress...well...thats because i cant find a place to do so...since my facebook has my mom and aunt which i dont want them to know this...then blog suddenly just come out from my mind...cause not much ppl know about my blog and i dont want them to worry about me...i can say this blog is something that remind me something or a good friend to listen to me....

well...i would say this ...i really dont believe in close friends because from my point of view, i feel that no one really treated me as their best or close friends....maybe for them they dont think like that...but i do feel like that....cause from my point of view, close or best friends are ppl that will be there by your side when you need them or when you are sad...and you will never hide secrets from them....share your happiness with them...i know you guys might be thinking im quite true....but if you really know me well...as in you know me in person....i bet you do believe with me that i dont have one....

okok..i know everyone have their privacy or their own time cause i too have.....but when im down or sad or depress...where are the ppl i needed ? yes they do listen to your problem but they will always say "actually you are not that right...you also have fault" ....i know i have some attitude problem...but i dont think my attitude is really that bad yet....at least i still think for others....i know when to speak, when not to....you might think that i think too good about myself...but now i really thinking alone and im not telling lie...im just saying my true feelings....i know what i said now has already make some ppl angry or piss off....but if you are the ppl i mention, pls do think about it....maybe now you didnt do anything...but try think about last time....

ok ..lets change another topic...well...the thing that influence me to this is my family....about the best friends thingy...its quite a small matter to me now...cause in the future, i know stuffs like that will happen and its very difficult to find a close friend ....

my family....i would say a prefect family from most of the ppl's view....have a great business, smart dad, nice moms, great sons and daughters, well manners, humble, peaceful and ect....all the good things you can think of....however its not really like that....there are plenty of things happen in this "prefect family" ....you know no one is prefect....everyone knows it... if there is really a prefect person, i would say "thank god for giving you a prefect body with prefect life" ...however for mostly of us, we are not prefect....and we do know that....i really really wanted to tell you all the family problems....but i dont think its good for me to do so cause first of all, this is internet and maybe there's someone unknown reads it and do something bad about my family? but i can give hint to you guys about the problems....what you see from the hong kong movies, you can see in my family.....yea ...so use your imagination to think about it....

however, i dont care about that....i would think all these problems are quite cool...i mean where can you get this in mostly ppl's family? well....maybe im used to it? been grow up with all these problems around me...but this time, i get a bad result and my whole family is disappointed in me...even i, myself, too disappointed ....i bet my whole family now hates me....sometimes i do wonder whether i am from this family...

well...my eldest brother never treat me nice before...its like im not exist at all....everytime i talked to him or asked him something, he will never answer...like im not there ....well ...my family said he is always like that...MY ASS....if he is always like that, then why on earth when you guys talk to him, he will answer???? tell me that!!! all i can feel from him is that he dont like me ....i dunno why...i didnt do anything to him but he just being like that to me ....but nevermind...at least my elder sister and my second brother still talk to me...well...i guess they dont like me now...since my result is bad....i know you guys will say they care for me thats why they are angry at me when my result is bad...but when im studying, since when you guys care about me?? i mean even in my normal life....you didnt even ask about me....and now you are angry because i got bad result....how funny is that!!

i would say the only one who cares about me now is my mom....at least she talk to me nicely...try to understand why i did badly in my exam.....now i understand why ppl always prefer to talk to mom instead of dad....however....that dont really release my stress...i mean its kinda increase my stress and make me feel guilty....well...thats a good thing...so i would feel bad ....

now i really feel like running away from home....i know this is avoiding the issues ....but i still feel like running away...even just for awhile....so i dont need to feel that pressure for awhile...i wanted to refresh myself...

leave my family behind....


leave my name behind....


leave the ugly world behind....


leave the pressure behind....


but i cant run away from home....being tied tightly with my house....

first car accident....

yea....like what the tittle said....my first car accident....and it happened in Melbourne!! ....it seems like i give out a lot my first time in Melbourne.... i wonder is it good or bad....

well...it all happens because some girl from Malaysia, Kelantan, who dont have a translated licence borrowed her friend's car for a week.....i dont think she knows how the Melbourne rules work.....first of all, if you dont have a translated licence of your own country's car licence, you cant really drive in Melbourne....even though Australia accepts Malaysia's licence but it must be TRANSLATED.....secondly, you must waited for the car who is going straight FINISH crossing then you only can right turn from your own lane.....third, when you right turn, pls cross FASTER so that ppl wont get to knock into you even you turn at the wrong timing....^^

here are the pictures of the girl car's condition...

and this is our car condition....i know it doesnt look like anything wrong, however the front part of the car was kinda bengkak bengkok ...and my friend just bought this car...and its freaking NEW!!! so yea....

in conclusion, if you dont know the road rules of other country, PLS DONT DRIVE!!

P.S. no one injure or die....so yea....freaking lucky for us

the painball (paintball)

last sunday, i went painball(paintball) with my friends....well we dress up like prisoner....=.=..who ask them let us wear that....such an ugly protection clothes......



well....because we wanna protect our beautiful hair, we decided to buy beanie....well...the result is ....from the picture below...looks like guy and like some robbery who wanna rob the bank~

we were wearing the ugly "protection clothes" .....not working at all....i kena shot so many times on the legs...=.= ....i wonder why they give me the protection vest...no one shoot my body at all!!!! T.T.....my legs full of big blue black.......pain la

this is our group picture~~~ yea....four girls and four guys.....and the best thing is , we VS big size ang mo....damn unfair la.....we surender jor still shoot us....terrible....T.T

conclusion is, DONT PLAY paint ball with angmo....the best is play among friends....cause they cant aim and will only shoot your upper body ...or might not shoot you because you are girl?

but dont play if you dont wanna get hurt at all....T.T.....damn....the black blue still on my legs.....

a very very good day~

Yesterday, ethel, henrik and me went out for lunch. It was a cafe called Girraffe. It was a very very nice cafe...thanks henrik for intro it to us. Here is the pictures in the cafe.
















now i only realise ethel and henrik almost have the same smile ...lol




















ethel's banana chocolate




















my ice chocolate















yummy chicken pie~
















chicken lasagne?? forget the name jor
















if im not mistaken, its salad spaghetti
















ermm..some potato pie i think?

pointing at the girraffe, their cafe name

below is the cafe's inner design~

ethel was busying taking pictures around the cafe

after that, we kinda window shopping cause cant get to buy what i wanted....however, it was quite a fun day~ if you guys come to melbourne, i will bring you guys come to this place~~ i bet you guys will love it!!!

alive again~~

hmm...kinda lazy to blog so didnt write anything...anyways my friends been asking me to update...=.=...so i update for you guys, flo n nona!!!! so be proud of yourself!!!

anyways today i went for job hunting~~ i didnt know it would be so fun....but quite tired though...hope i will get one soon then i can use the money to buy more dolls !!! gahahhahahha!!! i've applied 5 shops....its quite new of them to accept my resume...not like some ppl (girls) straight away say no.....kinda rude for them....at least they ask for the resume...=.=....

after that, i went to my friend's birthday party ...it later turns into drinking party....was kinda lucky that didnt get to drink a lot~ so this proof im not drunk now cause i can still write my blog!!

since today its job hunting day so no picture for this .... but at least i've updated my blog? so welcome me back !!! gahahahhaahha!!! okok .....thats kinda lame =.=....

A day trip!

Last week my family came and I really do feel tired.... I'm so used to wake up late since everything in Melbourne starts late and ends early.... but my family is totally different... wake up early and ends late....=.=....too used to Malaysia's life style.... anyways we went to a day trip in some part of Melbourne....sorry I forget the place name....here are the pictures





















This is the first stop of the trip... This is where we have our lunch... it's really a nice restaurant ...the food there are tasty~ but we need to wait for one hour to have the table....so we decided to walk around...
















This is the side view of the restaurant.... I just love the view of this place....it's really relaxing!


















This is a toy shop at that place...look at all those toys....



















this is the shops on the street...very old western style right?




















This is one of the "lorong" but it doesn't looks like a side road...compare to our country's "lorong" =.=...so big difference....
















This is a shop that sells tea pots and tea leafs...I didn't take picture inside the shops...afraid the owner don't like it... but inside the shops really full of tea pots , cups and tea leafs....really amazing!!















The front view of the tea shop
















Side view of the tea shop
















While waiting for my family to buy stuffs, I just saw these beautiful flowers beside the street...don't they look lovely?















Finally we can go into the restaurant after wait for one hour...































Here are the food that we've ordered....I didn't took all the pictures because we were so hungry and just eat once the food came...
















Don't the fries look tasty?
















Don't be surprise seeing this picture.... yes....we are at a fishing area... my bro wanted to see this fishing pond so we drived around one hour to reach this place....
















These are the people who were fishing...

















A very beautiful fishing pond...just love the view...but it's so sunny =.=















A bunch of people who are damn free to come so far to just fish.....

















There also a mini golf place....quite interesting...a lot people were playing ...mostly adults....weird...i thought kids play this...















There's also a BBQ area for the family to BBQ once they caught the fish...

















After the fishing area , we went to a wine yard!! Of course we went there to try out the wines!!
















This is the place name...it's a very famous wine yard!!
















After testing the wine , we went out to find a place to sit down...this is part of the wine yard...it's really a nice place...
































yes...it is part of the wine yard...i know ....it's HUGE and BEAUTIFUL!! I also can't believe it's just a wine yard...
















This is one of the restaurant? It's a beautiful entrance...I just love the place!!















While we were waiting for our drinks , my mom and my sis...waiting .....boring...and cold too..
















TADA!!! We were waiting for our hot chocolate in a wine yard restaurant!! I know it's funny to drink hot chocolate ...it's suppose to drink wine....oh well...my family are weird~
















While we were enjoying our drink , we were looking such a beautiful view ~~

That's the end of our trip....It's quite a fun trip though it's freaking tiring....but I really enjoy it !